Change...
Change can be unexpecting, challenging, complicated, and extremely difficult to deal with. Growing up within the military life, change is something one has to get used to; however now that I've spent four years in the civilian world...I've seemed to have forgotten how to deal with change. Unfortunately I am not the one who has graduated college, not yet anyway, but the people whom I care about most have. Now I feel as if I'm alone. I have one more year left, and I fear that that one year will be by far the hardest. Having to go through things without your closest friends near by is difficult, and something I wish I didn't have to deal with, again. I see this last year going two ways; either, I will get my shit together and be the best student ever, or....I'll be the worst, not caring at all, and ending up wallowing in my own pity. I just hope the second wont be an option for me.
I find it funny that this is the type of change that scares me. Graduating College and moving on with my life, doesn't. This is what I can't wait for. I'm beyond ready to get my life and career started. I'm ready to be on my own, independent, and living life to the fullest of my abilities,without anyone or anything holding me back, this, this is what I cannot wait for. This change is change I'll be able to handle. It's funny isn't it. I know, I can't seem to explain why what one would assume to be the biggest and most difficult change, would be the change I'm ready for lol.
